I'm in one of those moods where I want absolutely my way. I want domination and submission my way. I want to be spanked, but just for the time, amount, and implement of my choosing. I am no means a brat, but I really want everything out of my control to be in my control. To be able to stop time and take the time I need to regroup.
It's early in the morning and I barely slept after working a double yesterday because of New Year's Day family fun-ness. All I want is a strong hand around my neck, slowly tightening, to really lose the idea of being in control in every way possible.
I had a good cry before. I went through a flurry of feelings, really unexplainable to anyone. I think I just feel invalidated and it's making me go a little coo-coo.
