Oh my God, I have a killer headache. I open my eyes and I realize that I didn't make it home. Ugh crap, I'm in his bed. Speaking of, where is he? And how much did I actually drink last night? I guess a lot if I don't remember how I ended up here. Shit. I had a tab running, did I even get my credit card back? I see my purse so I grab it and I rummage through it for my wallet. I find my wallet and my credit card is there, thank God.
I walk into his bathroom and I realize that I'm not wearing what I wore last night. I'm in one of his shirts. I sheepishly smile. Mhmm, it smells like him. Where are my clothes anyway? Last night is such a blur.
I hear keys jingle, and the lock click. He's back.
I squeeze some toothpaste on his toothbrush, stick it in my mouth and brush my teeth. By the time I finish brushing my teeth, he's standing at the doorway of the bathroom, looking at me.
"Good afternoon, my little lush." He says, while we move back to his bedroom.
I blush. "It's already the afternoon? Oh boy."
"Oh boy is right. It is the afternoon. Do you remember anything from last night?" He asks.
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
This Moment.
I don't know where this post is coming from or where it is leading but bear with me.
Right now, in this moment, I feel. I choose to be the uncertainty that I fear the most. I am asking myself what I want. I know I am a responsible person who will inevitably make the right decision because it is the adult thing to do. And at times I HATE that about myself. I wonder where the carefree person that I used to be went. The best part is, I don't even have real responsibilities yet. I'm frustrated. I don't even know how to express it.
I have always know the next step to take. After high school, it was clearly going to college. But now college is done, where do I go from here? Previously, it was getting a job, living my life, finding a man, getting my masters, getting married, and probably having kids. But does it happen that way. Probably not. Life cannot be planned out, it happens as it pleases. Like I always say, shit happens then you die.
And now, where does all this spanking stuff come into play? I don't have a freaking clue. I haven't talked to B in a while, maybe talking to him will help. Being older than me, he must have some experience in this area. He kind of mentioned it the last time I saw him.
Ugh, I don't know what I'm doing or really what I'm talking about, it is much to late to be coherently writing. Which means that I'm off to bed. Good night.
Right now, in this moment, I feel. I choose to be the uncertainty that I fear the most. I am asking myself what I want. I know I am a responsible person who will inevitably make the right decision because it is the adult thing to do. And at times I HATE that about myself. I wonder where the carefree person that I used to be went. The best part is, I don't even have real responsibilities yet. I'm frustrated. I don't even know how to express it.
I have always know the next step to take. After high school, it was clearly going to college. But now college is done, where do I go from here? Previously, it was getting a job, living my life, finding a man, getting my masters, getting married, and probably having kids. But does it happen that way. Probably not. Life cannot be planned out, it happens as it pleases. Like I always say, shit happens then you die.
And now, where does all this spanking stuff come into play? I don't have a freaking clue. I haven't talked to B in a while, maybe talking to him will help. Being older than me, he must have some experience in this area. He kind of mentioned it the last time I saw him.
Ugh, I don't know what I'm doing or really what I'm talking about, it is much to late to be coherently writing. Which means that I'm off to bed. Good night.
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